Thanks to Martha for sharing her story and to you, Jules, for the interview and for writing this article.
Ayahuasca has disclosed to me difficult episodes I went through, not in this life, but in two previous lives. None related to sexual abuse, but nonetheless extremely painful.
And I had clients with experiences similar with Martha's. Equally unexpected and inconceivable, leaving the same doubts and confusion.
At the same time, I did concoct compelling stories which I attributed to Ayahuasca, discovering later that I took myself for a ride, as I also listened to friends' and clients' stories in the same vein.
Well, based on my experience with clients and my own experiences with Ayahuasca, I think that I know the answer.
Maybe instead of trying to find the teacher, if Martha would track down other girls in her class, and ask about their lives, and their memories, more clarity and certainty will emerge.
Really interesting; thanks Jules. Thanks to Martha, for sharing her story. The two retreats seemed to help a lot (as you summarised, Jules) and yet she’s left with no concrete answers which is unsatisfying.
I’m interested in this bit:
“A part of me was like, you’re just one of those ayahuasca types, self-indulgent, there’s nothing wrong with you, why are you here? I was basically being attacked.”
I wonder what an Ayahuascha-type is? I self-indulgently take bubble baths, sit in Hotel Chocolat on a Wednesday morning drinking hot chocolate or have a luxury pedicure. I don’t think I’d take Ayahuascha to self-indulge!
I suppose Martha was attacking herself here with her judgements. But maybe she also alludes to an important point about how plant medicine (in fact any psychedelic) can have an effect on the ego. This ‘ego pushback’ fascinates me.
Thanks to Martha for sharing her story and to you, Jules, for the interview and for writing this article.
Ayahuasca has disclosed to me difficult episodes I went through, not in this life, but in two previous lives. None related to sexual abuse, but nonetheless extremely painful.
And I had clients with experiences similar with Martha's. Equally unexpected and inconceivable, leaving the same doubts and confusion.
At the same time, I did concoct compelling stories which I attributed to Ayahuasca, discovering later that I took myself for a ride, as I also listened to friends' and clients' stories in the same vein.
Well, based on my experience with clients and my own experiences with Ayahuasca, I think that I know the answer.
Maybe instead of trying to find the teacher, if Martha would track down other girls in her class, and ask about their lives, and their memories, more clarity and certainty will emerge.
Really interesting; thanks Jules. Thanks to Martha, for sharing her story. The two retreats seemed to help a lot (as you summarised, Jules) and yet she’s left with no concrete answers which is unsatisfying.
I’m interested in this bit:
“A part of me was like, you’re just one of those ayahuasca types, self-indulgent, there’s nothing wrong with you, why are you here? I was basically being attacked.”
I wonder what an Ayahuascha-type is? I self-indulgently take bubble baths, sit in Hotel Chocolat on a Wednesday morning drinking hot chocolate or have a luxury pedicure. I don’t think I’d take Ayahuascha to self-indulge!
I suppose Martha was attacking herself here with her judgements. But maybe she also alludes to an important point about how plant medicine (in fact any psychedelic) can have an effect on the ego. This ‘ego pushback’ fascinates me.